All that brings me joy, I can never have. But those that see (and treat) me as a toy? They dwell around me. It's as if everything I love are Forbidden Fruits. And everything a loathe, lays itself infront of me. Am I to take them into my life? Why should I make myself miserable? Am I meant to lead my life solitarily? A sea of people? But just specks of sincerity. Just specks of sensitivity, compassion. I am not trash. I do not enjoy being pushed aside.

I have very little. I had hope. God, I live on it. But those I worked so hard to keep, you tear them away from me. I always felt happy to see you happy. I always ended up alone. But, as I said, I had hope. I hoped one day your eyes would see what I needed. I thought you'd realise what's what. But no. Outshine me. Downplay me. Made me insignificant. And you still do. I compremised myself, but I didn't need to. I didn't have to, you're nobody to me, I don't owe you anything, I could have easily have it all for myself. I should have played dirty. For some stupid reason, I decided, no.

Good deed? Maybe, but not to me.I never expected anything in return, all I wanted was care. Genuine care. However even such a simple thing is now a Forbidden Fruit. My world's small, and I'll do my best to develop things into better. But if I'm always to be insignificant to you, all I can say is, I'm so sorry for you. Today, it's just lil ol'Farie, tomorrow I'm gone. And not everyone is alike me. I'm not brutal, but the darn world is. Being aware & appreciative work alongside. That's why I feel sorry for you. I simply can't comprehend the reasons for these tears.

Good night.

PS. Sorry, no videos today. I feel a lil fever building up.

Just to remind myself of what I DESPRATELY-HAVE to get done!

Wednesday - **Teacher Hunting
Thursday - **Application Do-Or-Die
Friday - Trim of hair. AND send application to _ _ _(shall no divulge area name, Cullens might know why)
Saturday - Lose weight? Fix both laptops. Continue falling in love with Spunk Ransom (*hint - Twilight!) !

VIDEO OF THE DAY

The Devil Wears Prada Gag Reel!

Today was sooo no Monday Blue! In English, I received greatest news! My oral results was totally unexpected! But I guess all the last mintue reminders form Mdm Noreha, Miss Liu, and the last reading session with some of my classmates all paid off! But MDM NOREHA IS THE CORE FOR MY SUCCESS IN ENGLISH! I Love Her Too! (x

POA? Was okay, wasn't as bad as the previous few lessons...but can't say the same about the person teaching the subject. There are fine lines between being REALISTIC and MEAN and ENCOURAGING. That's all you need to know.

PE? Siow. The boys lost their minds. Mr Azuan Tan was some quirky 'shi-foo' master! Liyana fell. -_-' Me? NO VISIBLE PHYSICAL DIFFERENCE. pfft.

Assembly was a joke. I know they put in effort, but seriously, you didn't meet your purpose of task AT ALL! Try. Harder. Much. Harder.

RISE lesson was zee epitome! We gave each other hearts! I was just like Valentine's Day but just more care free! I simply adore my class! I'll be a rotting dead fly if I were in any other class...

Lab? Physics, macam NS. Chem, tak macam NS. I hope Shien's okay, she looked pretty down the dumps back there.

Now, back to my books! Nitey-nites!

Much love,
Farie Rose!

VIDEO OF THE DAY

Champions of Fiestari 2008 - Nanyang Polytechnic

Dum-dee-dum...
Had a jolly good time at class today! Although it was only me and Faddy, our chitter-chatter was constant! The scolding about not doing our dear 'tugasan' was sooo expected. I've memorized 2 lines from the Surah that we're doing. Gosh, I'm pathetic. And Arab! Thank God I understood every single word she yabbed! Honestly, I'm the laughing stock of my family when it comes to Arab! Everyone can, at the minimum, understand the language. But me? I'm learning what kindergartner's learn! Well, that's what Kakak claims...At least there is a glimmer of hope since I received a strong B for the Mid-years!

I told Faddy about *-toot-*! To put it simple, Fads' an awesome friend! She's went through the same thing and said that I'm still, at least, in the right frame of mind! CLEAN & CARE FOR THAT CUT ON YOUR TOE! YOU'LL SOOO NEED IT FOR SOCCER! (X

YO AMY! YOU'RE TERRIBLY MISSED! COME NEXT WEEK OR, well, OH JUST COME DOWN!

Farie can't wait to go back to school! No, not because of *-toot-*. -_-' Please lah eh. There is a fine line between liking and obsession! I have not crossed over to that dark side. Undoubtedly so, someone has. =P School equivalents with adrenaline rush!

Much love,

Farie Rose!

Enjoy this Video-Of-The-Day!

Madonna - Vouge - MTV Performance

Weeee! Had an enjoyable class outing today! But it was ridiculously tiring! Played the games there as if we weren't 16 year olds you know! Of course Miss Liu was involved in everything! I love her! Cleaned the beach well, the bazaar was a blast! Plus spent quality time with my family, The Cullen Coven! (:

There are waaay more pictures then just this one! I swear, half the time my face, OUT OF THIS WORLD! (in another sense, burok)

Gosh Fariha! Get *-toot-* out of your head already! No time to think about *-toot-* or anyone else for that matter! Focus! Remember, O LEVELS! NO 14 POINTS, NO NOTHING! Direct that fettish-ism to Breaking Dawn & Prelims! Hoorah!

Ooooh! I found this clip which I utterly love!

I'm Still Here - John Rzeznik - Treasure Planet

Another one of those movies which are my all-time-favourites!

Her song(s), I initially thought, was(were) pathetic. But I figured she must have put a lot thought into all of it. Plus the heartbreak that caused had the drive to write the song. So I ended up liking this song(s).

7 Things - Miley Cyrus






And I cried when I first this other song. Cuz I miss my Grandpapa & Datuk too...may your souls rest in peace of the hereafter. Farie misses you both oh so much! )':


I Miss You - Miley Cyrus




"And even though it's different now, you're still here somehow..."

Had a rough day. Rejection, I ought to be immune too you by now. However, I know some face worse ordeals. But I was comforted by the thought of my dearly beloved(s). Beach cleaning tomorow! Hope we'll have a blast!

Recently, I've developed obsessive fetishes!

• The Devil Wears Prada

And Vampires!

• Due to, none other then, The Twilight Saga!

Unless you've been living under a boulder up in the Himalayas, you would have heard of Stephenie Meyer who is the genius behind Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and, this one is about to be released, Breaking Dawn! Vampire + Romance = Farie losing her senses! (= And don't forget The Devil Wears Prada(DWP)! Not do I only love the acting, I simply adore the storyline! And, of course, le fashion!

These are my favourite songs from DWP!
MERYL STREEP IS LEGENDARY!

Back to the Twilight Saga. I'm glad the movie is coming soon! Haha! That'll be another obession for me! The casting, too me, is near perfect! However Ashley Greene (plays as Alice) is spot on! Edward is played by Robert Pattinson, better known for playing the part of Cedric Digorry in HP4. Whilst Bella is played by Kristen Stewart!

HERE's THE ORIGINAL MOVIE TRAILER.




WHILE THIS ONE IS THE BEST FAN MADE TRAILER MADE!



In school, we even have our own Cullen Coven! I know, I know, obsessed bitch. Sorry to disappoint you. I DON'T CARE (:

Till I blog again! Much loves!